I hear you, sugar. Likely I would have hacked up the other lung if I kept going. Used to get the most awful just yucky tar gunk that I needed to hack out every year. Tell you what, .... what.
It was no joking matter to feel I could have just dropped when I got a fit like that.
It's now been about three months since I had even a 'sneaked' single cigarette. Last one I had I could not enjoy. It tasted all sick and the next morning I paid for it. Got all congested and wheezy. Could not have enjoyed oral sex with a lady, or man for nothing. Figure I am full well done with cigarettes.
Now, to attempt getting myself back to decent shape. Looked it up yesterday evening, I need to lose 123 pounds. That will get me down to 165 pounds, which is the average suggested weight zone I 'ought to' be in. Yes, I think, no, I know I need to get there and will. Get there and know a lot of the pain in my joints will lessen or stop. I know too a lot of my putting on so much excess is my lacking self discipline.
Well I've quit smoking, there's that I've done.
Going to cut way back on empty carbs, soda, sugar & try to get started with some basic stretching and gradual exercise. Do have a treadmill here in the apartment. Suggested notion is I take a 30 45 minute walk daily. Bah! Back to drilling like boot camp. *smh* Aw well, got to be done.