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MyMagicMist

MyMagicMist

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Jimi said:
World without love
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Hear that like crystal. It is just difficult at times, accepting love is enough. I'm still a young pup though. One that pays heed to the experience gone before.

*chuckles* Quick anecdote here. Wife's BIL has been using "Big Red" an older model red Ford F-150 pickup truck. Well, he used until it stopped running. Wife's dad asked the neighbor who works as a mechanic in a shop in town what might be wrong. he described it to him. The neighbor suggested it was the starter coils.

Wife's BIL kept arguing that it wasn't that when her dad brought it up. Starter coils only cost around $30, or so. It's a relatively "easy" fix too, especially for a guy who has had two years of diesel mechanics, a few years as a machinist. But "oh no, it wasn't that." The BIL "knew better because he is the greatest, best and most specialist, and it couldn't be that."

Her dad finally went on ahead, bought starter coils, replaced the old ones. He then got the BIL one morning and told him to try starting the truck. Of course, you can imagine the spewing from the BIL. Wayne told him quietly, calmly, "Try it." So the truck started and ran fine.

We were up for a Sunday dinner this evening. The BIL was out on the front/back porch fixing a door knob that he ought to have fixed six months ago when he was asked, politely to check it out. All that was required was to back out the screws, re-tap the holes, set the screws in tighter, maybe add some wood epoxy or glue. Point being it too was something simple.

He works outside the home. If you can call setting in a fuel station booth, pushing buttons, maybe setting up cones for fuel delivery trucks, cleaning up a spill now and then work. Sorry but if I had actually gotten apprenticed out and gotten welding certifications, I damn sure wouldn't be running a Kroger's fuel station. Figure it'd be the same if I'd been certified to wrench on diesel motors. Nor would I be doing that if I was certified in the computer field, which he does have some accreditation for. Bah.

Had a discussion with my wife when we got home. Her train of thought was simple. "If I ask you to do something, anybody asks you, ... you get up and go do. You do the best you can and if you get over your head you'll say. At least you go and do. I don't even care anymore that I need to ask, I understand that. You're not going to know unless you're asked."
 
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Rhianne

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Rhianne said:
They are a bad ass band. Kinda what glam rock could’ve been, imho. Thanks Jimi.
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The Partridge Family - - - I Think I Love You.

I hope I quoted the right post. Tappy doesn’t let you delete any posts. Lotsa big :hugs: and :clouds: to everyone here.

Is White Wolves okay? I miss her.
 
MyMagicMist

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Jimi said:
And a very smart pup at that:);)
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I try. *grins* Told her dad, "Yeah, I might have told you I didn't think it was the coils either. Then, I would have said let's try it, rule it out." He chuckled and asked why I would have caved so easily. "Well, you been 'around' enough, figure you got some idea what you're talking about." He chuckled and told me he saw his youngest girl was in good hands, at least hands that had sense. I told him, "made a promise." He smiled and nodded, he knew exactly what I meant.

Rhianne said:
Hope you’re doing good.
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Doing fair to middlin'. Need to get my bladder checked out yet. See if different doctor/s can find a cause of blood in the urine. It isn't visible to the eye but it shows as too much under a scope. Had one doctor check a while back, said he either saw nothing, or come up inconclusive. I'm figuring it ain't a thing, least ways so I hope. Mentally? Eh, frustrated and tired at/of life in general. Which is to say I'm relatively okay, I just care too much. Sometimes that is a stumbling block.

I'm learnin' the fine art of not giving a fuck though. :) No worries, brother still brother, he just getting a little wiser. :)

That in mind, let's shuffle this play list a bit ... *grabs something random*

Alien Sex Fiend -- Do You Sleep

Keep it going with a little German dance techno, ...

Nachtmahr - Tanzdiktator

Now, I go rack out. *chuckles*
 
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Rhianne

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MyMagicMist said:
I try. *grins* Told her dad, "Yeah, I might have told you I didn't think it was the coils either. Then, I would have said let's try it, rule it out." He chuckled and asked why I would have caved so easily. "Well, you been 'around' enough, figure you got some idea what you're talking about." He chuckled and told me he saw his youngest girl was in good hands, at least hands that had sense. I told him, "made a promise." He smiled and nodded, he knew exactly what I meant.



Doing fair to middlin'. Need to get my bladder checked out yet. See if different doctor/s can find a cause of blood in the urine. It isn't visible to the eye but it shows as too much under a scope. Had one doctor check a while back, said he either saw nothing, or come up inconclusive. I'm figuring it ain't a thing, least ways so I hope. Mentally? Eh, frustrated and tired at/of life in general. Which is to say I'm relatively okay, I just care too much. Sometimes that is a stumbling block.

I'm learnin' the fine art of not giving a fuck though. :) No worries, brother still brother, he just getting a little wiser. :)
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So the dilligaf thing you brought up? Try to adopt it as an attitude every once in a while. Not so much to your lady wife, but to other people. I thought you had an empathy shortage, though?!

I do worry, bro. Even if I don’t nag!
When you mentioned the blood in urine, my stomach dropped. Glad you’re hanging aboot a bit.
 
MyMagicMist

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Rhianne said:
I thought you had an empathy shortage, though?!
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No. I have a shortage of endorphins. Did further study, found out it relates back to hypothalamus. Everyone else that falls in that normal dryer setting, well, they can exercise and get those endorphins going. They may also get ecstatic over doing particular things & can maintain interest in those.

Got trouble feeling joy, happiness, satisfaction, rewarded, interested in stuff. This is due to my hypothalamus either not functioning correctly, or not functioning at all. What I lack is testosterone. My body does not produce that for itself and I figure it doesn't produce estrogen either, or at even lower rates than a sparse testosterone trace my genetic masculinity offered.

My T number currently is upper 300's to lower 400's. What is considered "normal" range is lowest 3,000 to highest 15,000. If I get a 1.50 ml dose of testosterone fortnightly, my T number might reach upper 700's to lower 800's. The doctor currently has me on a lower dosage as he thought I was not taking it. On my part I misunderstood his mannerism six months ago. I had a log of my shots given me, it seemed he didn't want bothered to see it. I stopped having the nurse/s log it for me.

Empathy wise? I'm probably one of the highest level empath around and that's not arrogance or boasting. Also got some other nice mental party favors going on. Been well trained up to a point too. No, I'll never say I'm the best or even one of the best. Hell, I'm lucky to see average most days. I also clusterfuck myself way too much with being a damn klutz. "Ha! Look at me be ninja! Oh shit, just broke a rib stretching the wrong way again, damn it! Oh no, dropped the satchel charge in the wrong shaft too, dumbass me! *sigh*"

Being clear, if you've seen the movie Spartan ... well, I was kind of trained like that. Will admit though evening knowing it was a lot of movie magic involved, I would likely not even be half that "good". But yeah, I was known as a "hound"/"hunter" "hey you! Doer!"

I learned sociopath behavior, in as much as, I can turn off my emotions as a means of surviving abuse. I don't like me without emotions, others don't like me that way either. I get cold, too cold and quite adamant upon eliminating a lot of problems with a lasting solution. I can slip off the "rails" a bit into that if I get pissed off too. I might throw stuff. You might put something in my hands though to stop me from "cutting lose". Seems I kind of stop, think, "damn I could hurt someone swinging this axe/knife/hammer/whatever is in my hands" and then calm down, or at least try very hard to do so.

I don't do much "hot" angry. Used to bottle it up too much, let it simmer to boil. Learning it's okay "in reason" for me to let out just a bit of angry now and then as a "pressure valve". Otherwise, I stay on guard constantly, or stay angry all the time to avoid getting too angry and going cold, liquid nitrogen. And see dumb as psychologist tells me, "stop being on guard, relax".

I know though that I cannot be afforded the excuse of being not responsible when I black out from anger. The aforementioned training marks me out as too capable. *cough* There's no limited capacity defense or heated passion one for me if I go off and say maim, or kill someone. "Relax"? Really?

This is why I also come off prozac very quickly, crashed off in fact. I was having dissociative psychotic splits and persona changes. I would go to sleep medicated but wake up once I got to a point in sleep but still be asleep but be someone else. Next day when I genuinely woke I would not recall that. Our neighbor caught me patrolling the road in front of our two houses one night, said he had seen me walk the full parameter too. I was in a killing mood, or at least the other person posing as me was. So, yeah fuck the prozac.

And no, it's not that a dominating control freak. I'm actually a natural switch freak. *ahem* It is though point of fact I'm one of those kinds of passionate types what needs to have control over themselves. Don't take me wrong, I surely do enjoy some of the stuff we're not allowed to discuss here but is legal in nearly 38 states. I like using it because I can relax but still have some good degree of control. If I could get disability and a WV medical card for it, boy don't you know.

It is not me thinking I need control either. I kind of know I do as well as others pointing it out to me. "There's madness in his art!" "Well yes, of course but is there art in his madness?" "Huh?" "Exactly!"
 
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MyMagicMist

MyMagicMist

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Talking Heads - Take Me To The River

Aw hell, somebody just take me. We can go where ever, do what ever. Need "away" a bit, just for some shits and grins. Fuck I might even clean for you, oh no, wait that would upset my Lady. Nope, cleaning is out. Can't have the world know about her sweet little house bitch. *chuckles*
 
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Jimi

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Good afternoon my friends:wave:
Gonna leave this here and I'll be back in a bit:)


On Monday, November 4, or early in the week, we are anticipating an announcement from the Trump Administration regarding FDA guidance about sales of flavored vapor products. According to recent reports, this guidance is expected to go as far as banning every flavor other than tobacco and menthol. In spite of years of communications from consumers and meetings with industry stakeholders, it is clear that officials remain unknowledgeable about how the vapor industry functions and what customers need.

Two flavors will not sustain independent vapor retailers and
will unnecessarily make vaping less attractive
to people who want to switch away from smoking.


The White House needs to hear from adult vapers and anyone who loves a vaper! A flavor ban won’t protect our children, but it will kill their parents.

We need to
Light Up The Switchboard
At The White House!
Ph: 202-456-1111
(Comment Line)
or
202-456-1414
(Switchboard)


On your call:

  • The operator will likely ask where they can direct your call
  • Simply tell them that flavored vapor products saved your life,
  • Tobacco and Menthol aren't enough to save small businesses or help people quit smoking; and,
  • tell them “We Vape, We Vote.
Be polite, be brief, and say thank you.
Do you want timely alerts about this issue and information about how you can do more?
 
Rhianne

Rhianne

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MyMagicMist said:
No. I have a shortage of endorphins. Did further study, found out it relates back to hypothalamus. Everyone else that falls in that normal dryer setting, well, they can exercise and get those endorphins going. They may also get ecstatic over doing particular things & can maintain interest in those.

Got trouble feeling joy, happiness, satisfaction, rewarded, interested in stuff. This is due to my hypothalamus either not functioning correctly, or not functioning at all. What I lack is testosterone. My body does not produce that for itself and I figure it doesn't produce estrogen either, or at even lower rates than a sparse testosterone trace my genetic masculinity offered.

My T number currently is upper 300's to lower 400's. What is considered "normal" range is lowest 3,000 to highest 15,000. If I get a 1.50 ml dose of testosterone fortnightly, my T number might reach upper 700's to lower 800's. The doctor currently has me on a lower dosage as he thought I was not taking it. On my part I misunderstood his mannerism six months ago. I had a log of my shots given me, it seemed he didn't want bothered to see it. I stopped having the nurse/s log it for me.

Empathy wise? I'm probably one of the highest level empath around and that's not arrogance or boasting. Also got some other nice mental party favors going on. Been well trained up to a point too. No, I'll never say I'm the best or even one of the best. Hell, I'm lucky to see average most days. I also clusterfuck myself way too much with being a damn klutz. "Ha! Look at me be ninja! Oh shit, just broke a rib stretching the wrong way again, damn it! Oh no, dropped the satchel charge in the wrong shaft too, dumbass me! *sigh*"

Being clear, if you've seen the movie Spartan ... well, I was kind of trained like that. Will admit though evening knowing it was a lot of movie magic involved, I would likely not even be half that "good". But yeah, I was known as a "hound"/"hunter" "hey you! Doer!"

I learned sociopath behavior, in as much as, I can turn off my emotions as a means of surviving abuse. I don't like me without emotions, others don't like me that way either. I get cold, too cold and quite adamant upon eliminating a lot of problems with a lasting solution. I can slip off the "rails" a bit into that if I get pissed off too. I might throw stuff. You might put something in my hands though to stop me from "cutting lose". Seems I kind of stop, think, "damn I could hurt someone swinging this axe/knife/hammer/whatever is in my hands" and then calm down, or at least try very hard to do so.

I don't do much "hot" angry. Used to bottle it up too much, let it simmer to boil. Learning it's okay "in reason" for me to let out just a bit of angry now and then as a "pressure valve". Otherwise, I stay on guard constantly, or stay angry all the time to avoid getting too angry and going cold, liquid nitrogen. And see dumb as psychologist tells me, "stop being on guard, relax".

I know though that I cannot be afforded the excuse of being not responsible when I black out from anger. The aforementioned training marks me out as too capable. *cough* There's no limited capacity defense or heated passion one for me if I go off and say maim, or kill someone. "Relax"? Really?

This is why I also come off prozac very quickly, crashed off in fact. I was having dissociative psychotic splits and persona changes. I would go to sleep medicated but wake up once I got to a point in sleep but still be asleep but be someone else. Next day when I genuinely woke I would not recall that. Our neighbor caught me patrolling the road in front of our two houses one night, said he had seen me walk the full parameter too. I was in a killing mood, or at least the other person posing as me was. So, yeah fuck the prozac.

And no, it's not that a dominating control freak. I'm actually a natural switch freak. *ahem* It is though point of fact I'm one of those kinds of passionate types what needs to have control over themselves. Don't take me wrong, I surely do enjoy some of the stuff we're not allowed to discuss here but is legal in nearly 38 states. I like using it because I can relax but still have some good degree of control. If I could get disability and a WV medical card for it, boy don't you know.

It is not me thinking I need control either. I kind of know I do as well as others pointing it out to me. "There's madness in his art!" "Well yes, of course but is there art in his madness?" "Huh?" "Exactly!"
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The high score in empathy explains us becoming friends then. I find it to be one of the most useful “gifts”. (Once I got past the “I’m overwhelmed by people’s stuff and I thought it was mine” stage.)
I like flowers too, it’s just I don’t have any friends in deed...as it were. :giggle: Oh, I’m going to see if I can get one of my CBD places to ship to you, now that I’ve got bread (Fred.) They may be less neurotic than vape places online. I need to get ID and can’t find the stuff I put away to get it...so I wouldn’t lose it.
 
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